NurZamirah; Mrs Nick Jonas.

Part 3: To Love You

2012-02-08T11:43:00.000-08:00

" Sometimes, to love someone is uncontrollably easy.

All it takes is a glance, and that glance will open a floodgate of emotions.

Sometimes, to love someone is bizarrely difficult.

It takes a link by fate and years of memories.

But always, to love someone and to re-love someone again,

it is so inexplicably exotic because it takes a glance to flashback years of memories

and then to allow a floodgate of emotions engulf you. "

-xoxo-

♥

Before I Met You.

2012-02-07T11:35:00.000-08:00

Before I met you, I wondered why all the lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated? Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why can't they just write good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? That is plain exaggeration.

Before I fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly! Why would a person cry for another person for hours? How could a person wait for his lovers for years? That is plain silliness.

Before we became close, I thought romance movies were just so stupid! How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of his own life, for his lover? That is plain stupidity!

When I realized I had fallen deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of live inspired by the writer's true stories.

-xoxo-

Town with my girls! :)

2012-02-06T10:49:00.000-08:00

Today, I went to town with my beautiful girls,

Syafiqah & Li Mei.

I met Syaff at Jurong East MRT and I was late!

(I was never early btw, hah!)

And we made our way to Clarke Quay to collect my pay so that I could use it for the outing expenses but due to some reason, it can't be collected!

Was pissed off, but Thank God Syaff was there!

Then we made our way to Bugis to meet Li Mei!

& this darling of mine was late also!

haha so while waiting, me & Syaff went to buy my shoes!

AND I BOUGHT THIS BLACK WEDGES!

SHO PRETTY!!

I am 161 of height & this wedges at least made me look like I'm 165 or 166!

& I'm happy! It's comfortable too!

(^^)

FAT GIRL ALSO CAN CROSS HER LEGS AND SHE IS HAPPY.

FAT GIRL IZ ME!

After our lunch & shopping session at Bugis,

me & the girls went to town & walked around.

We went to Far East Plaza and walked about, admiring shoes & bags!

Most importantly, we were having so much fun cam-whoring and talking!

And my girls were craving for their fried mars ball and their craving were fulfilled.

Here is the picture of the Fried Mars Balls!

It's a caramel filled balls served with ice cream & hershey's chocolate.

YUMZZZZZZZ.

Oh my, I can see you drooling there!

K JUST KIDDING.

After our time at Far East Plaza, we slacked at a Starbucks Cafe nearby.

We took ALOT of pictures there. And I spammed Li Mei's phone with my pictures.

And yes, we also had a heart-to-heart talk.

And eventually, my girls opened up and we three were talking like we have known each other for so long! I can really feel the bond between us and I NEVER want this beautiful friendship to end.

I will always pray that there will be no misunderstandings between us.

I would never want to lose these girls!

After the Starbucks session, we decided to walk around town without planning where to go.

As in, just walk where the path leads us to.

And we kept walking and walking and finally, we decided to go to Cineleisure

(if im not wrong, since I'm a town-idiot!)

and my girls decided to take Neoprints but sadly, the shop closed down!

So we decided to call it a day as it was reaching 10pm also.

We made our way to Somerset MRT and took the train home.

We had to separate at Raffles Place as I was taking the green line home.

I didn't want to separate with them, my heart felt really heavy (huhu)

but, we'll meet again!

I really had fun with these girls today! and our next outing, we are planning for a beach date!

Just the three of us.

Here's the rest of the pictures!

I'm going to rest now.

Goodnight, enjoy xx

♥

(Oh yes! This ninja guy is SUPER scary! I could only see his eyes! And he was staring at me the whole time when we walked in front of him! and when we requested for a photo, he just made this cute pose HAHAHA! and when we walked away, he was still staring at me! after walking a distance away, I turned around & found out he was following us! When I alerted the girls, he hid behind the posters and soon just disappeared! Weird, scary but funny at the same time!)

Nights.

♥

You should,

2012-02-05T10:29:00.000-08:00

STOP.

Just stop talking. Stop talking about what happened and what we were and all of those times that things went wrong between us. No relationship is perfect. Fights & misunderstandings are bound to happen. That was then & as much as I love hearing your voice& can never get enough of it, all I want you to do right now is shut up & kiss me. Just kiss me & forget about everything & only concentrate about how you feel at this moment.

-xoxo-

Who?

2012-02-04T23:40:00.001-08:00

I know it was my mistake & I know it was my fault.

but, who took advantage of who?

bottomline :

Let's stop making ourselves look like we're saint.

truth is, no one is a saint!

-xoxo-

Strong girl?

2012-02-03T10:42:00.000-08:00

Everyone has their breaking point. No matter how strong a girl is, sometimes all she needs is someone to give her a tight hug & say that they knows she's not okay when she's been claiming that she is, all these while.

-xoxo-

2011-11-14T00:28:00.000-08:00

I don't have the prettiest face for you to look at,

nor do I have the skinniest waist for you to hold,

but I do promise, I really do, that.....

I have the BIGGEST heart to love you with.

-xoxo-

2011-11-09T07:37:00.000-08:00

When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness.

It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides.

And when it subsides, you have to make a decision.

You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together,

that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.

Because this is what love is.

Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement,

it is not the desire to mate every second of the day.

Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away...

for me, love is YOU.

-xoxo-

23:59

2011-11-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

Spent my Thursday with my lovelies.

Syafiqah, Nigel & Shun Wei.

Went to watch a local horror movie,

23:59

Had lots of fun laughing & scaring ourselves.

After movies, we went to have our dinner at a chicken rice shop in Bugis.

It was just so fun!

Then we walked from Bugis to City Hall, hoping to reach Singapore River.

But, we lost our way and ended up at Suntec's Starbucks.

One by one had to leave and by 10pm, we called it a day.

I would so want to go out with these darlings of mine more!

-xoxo-

November.

2011-11-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

1st November 2011.

1/11/11

Shall wait for 11:11

then I will wish that I get the one I love

& remain a happy girl

-xoxo-

Nothing is new

2011-10-30T04:06:00.000-07:00

Basically, today, I realized that I'm over life.

Once again, someone had disappointed me and left me feeling empty.

I've always been the one being hurt, replaced & put aside.

WHAT'S NEW HUH?

I've always.

2011-10-30T03:33:00.000-07:00

Have you ever laid on your bed at night & just cried?

Cried because you're ugly.

Because you're not good enough?

Counted all your flaws from head to toe and feel worser about yourself?

Cried because of the comments people blurt out, actually hurts your feelings?

But in front of them, you just smiled and laugh about it just to cover the embarrassed feeling?

People tell you to stop complaining because someone else's is having it worser than you?

I have been doing all these since I started to grow up and actually know what is happening around me. People falling in love, crushes, like.

I don't wish to be a burden to anyone so I tried my best to bottle it up.

I just want someone who can accept me,

Love me and only me,

Shower with all his love & sweet words,

Be by my side day & night,

willing to hear all my ramblings,

spend time with me,

grab my hand instead of asking me for it,

hug me when I cry,

kiss me until I cant breathe,

bottom line, I just want someone to love me.

Is that too much to ask for?

-xoxo-

Let My Tears Flow.

2011-10-30T03:19:00.000-07:00

"Jeanne stared into his eyes and felt so warm and fuzzy; a feeling she didn't feel for a long time.She looked away awkwardly. She was staring into his eyes for such a long time that there was a awkward moment of silence between them. Then, she gently took her wrist out of James grasp and ....... slowly walked away from him with tears in her eyes."

-xoxo-

Miss You.

2011-10-30T03:12:00.000-07:00

"The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and you know you can never have them."
3. MORE. WEEKS.

2011-10-22T07:29:00.000-07:00

"I tried to sever ties & I ended up with wounds to bind,

like you're pouring salt in my cuts"

Moved On.

2011-10-17T05:48:00.000-07:00

I dont want to say much about whats been happening to my love life.

It just suck and Im a loser at love.

I GIVE UP.

Bestest

2011-10-17T05:39:00.000-07:00

Nur Syafiqah.

This Girl,

Special.

Bestest girlfriend you can ever find.

She has been here for me throughout my hardest time.

No more words I can think of to describe you, babe.

You're just the bestfriend anyone would be dying to have.

Thank you!

:')

Back!

2011-10-17T05:30:00.001-07:00

Hi people, I'm officially back here!

Been wandering around for a while & I came back!

Over the next few posts, Im gonna update what's been happening in my life.

For you avid readers, I love you and thank you for visiting here back!

XOXO

Hey!

2011-06-15T08:02:00.001-07:00

Hey people! Sorrrrryyyy for not updating for a long time. Ive been extremely busy. Guess tonight Im not in the mood to blog eh. Sorry~ But on a good note to end, tomorrow I turn seventeen.

Night, XOXO

Treasure.

2011-03-20T07:09:00.000-07:00

Hi people.

Sorry for leaving this blog dead for a long time.

Since i lost all of my usual readers.

Anyway, Ive been busy with school & new friends.

Life's going on pretty well now.

Cant say im not loving it ;)

And yeap, just 3 months in school and there are fights and misunderstandings.

Sometimes i ponder..... How would the world be without fights?

Wont it be more peaceful? Wont it be like more nicer to live in?

I want to cry, seriously... As im typing this.

Anyway, the current situation of Japan and all.

Im sad and disturbed actually.

Im being haunted by images of Singapore being crushed by tsunami and roads being torn apart.

My parents crying and screaming out for me and my siblings.

And i cant imagine my little brother crying out loud cause he's lost.

I just pray hard to Allah... Please dont land my family in such state. Please let us be together, if ever these things happen to us.

Please.

I cant bear to see my family members being swept away by the currents or maybe drown.

Seriousssss k, I think i shall stop typing now before i cry badly.

On a brighter note, i think i will start treasuring my family members more. And also i would like to make up with old friends. I would also like to apologize if i have ever done anything wrong.

Please accept my humble apologies. Alright, I shall proceed on updating in another post tomorrow. See you guys again!

-Nights-

MY APPLE TO MY PIE

2011-03-11T06:49:00.000-08:00

Hey dudes & dudettes.

A million apologies for not updating my blog.

Been kind of busy with assignments and tests!

OSA is a headache and Customer Service sucks much.

but this is wayyyyyy easier than maths, science and etc.

K, i shall update some other time.

Need to complete some things first.

TATA

Justin Bieber, this is for you

2011-02-25T07:22:00.000-08:00

Baby, dont stop strumming your acoustic guitar and singing to me.
I love you with all my heart.
And even if you stop someday, my heart is forever yours.
When you stole it, it made you a thief.
Thiefs dont return, they're punished.
And your punishment? Be with me and receive all my love!
=)
I love you.

Trip Announcement.

2011-02-25T06:08:00.000-08:00

Hey guys,

TOMORROW AFTER A LONG PERIOD OF TIME,

IM GOING TO PULAU UBIN!

YEAY-ness.

-XOXO-

Bestfriends For Life

2011-02-19T23:22:00.000-08:00

Miss You So Much.
Meet up soon please!

-XOXO-

special you

2011-02-17T22:35:00.000-08:00

I need someone who can be there for me when i need him.

Because i know i will be there for him when he needs me.

-XOXO-

Bieberlicious

2011-02-14T23:13:00.000-08:00

JUSTIN BIEBER

His movie is hitting Singapore's theatre soon. He is coming to Singapore soon! I want to look for someone special to go with together because he is special and i want someone special to accompany me. Im going to cry & scream my heart out! hehehhe.
Advice for Bieber : Get ready boy cause' Im here. MUAHAHAHAHA

SCHOOL

2011-02-12T11:24:00.000-08:00

Hey guys!

this is my clique in school.

We like bonded instantly.

Its still early and i have yet to know more about them.

But what i can tell you for now is,

they are the best mates you can find.

They understand you.

However, i still miss my secondary school babessss!

='(

now i am like comfortable in school and sometimes they call me Mummy!!

hahahaha cause i cooked for them during our first outing.

HEH

okay shall end my post here.

Tomorrow will be a long day cos im heading to the library to complete my assignments.

Thanks to my thumbdrive who decided to crash.

and yes, thanks to those who constantly ask me to update my blog!!

and thanks to you guys who take your time to visit and read my blog.

thanks

shall end my updates here.

XOXO

WORK

2011-02-12T10:45:00.000-08:00

These are my precious babies!

NUTRITIONPARK.COM
the work sucks but the people rock!
I started working here on the 10th of November.

Work was okay...

just handling phone calls, packing, solving difficult customers.

Then Noora came, work was more fun!!

we had laughters and sometimes, tears.

And then we had crushes.

HAHAHA K SHALL NOT TALK ABOUT THAT.

And then came Sya.

Noora had to be moved to the store and i sat with sya.

At first i was hesitant cos she looked so garang.

But when i sat down with her, she was like doing all my work!!

all the phonecalls she answered.

so i opened up to her like realllllllllllllllllll fast!

days, weeks passed.

We were like best friends already.

we spend the six days together.

breakfast and lunch. sometimes dinner also together!

This explains why im like so closeeeee with her now.

I am so attached to her!

On 31st December, we had a farewell dinner for Arun, Noora and me.

At Sakura. thanks to zul for driving us to the place.

and then it was sad. we gave alot of hugs and tears were shed.

I was sad cos i joined first before noora and arun so i knew these people like moreee and they were so nice to me on my first day.

Can you believe it, i remember my interview day and what i wore and even my cab driver who drove me to this hillview terrace!!

HAHAHAH silly right.

and yes, not to mention i made alot of new friends while working there!!

Theres this Mr Raj, who complimented on my good service and said that if i ever want someone to write about me and the service that i rendered, he is willing to write for me.

OMG sweet kan.

then there was Shah, Raymond, Val and alot more.

All were the people who i helped.

Awww talking about this just makes me sad again.

But nevermind lah, they are still my Nutritionpark babies no matter what.

I still meet up with them now and we will definitely keep in touch no matter what.

K enough about my ex work place.

See you in the next post!

XOXO

Loved

2011-02-12T10:23:00.000-08:00

Hi guys!

A million apologies for leaving this blog dead.

K now im back!!

And, ive got like a lotttt to update!!

Lets see, where do i begin?

maybe i will start on a new post and constantly update all that i missed out okie.

see you guys in the next post!

XOXO

2011-01-21T07:02:00.000-08:00

Hi people! I got nothing much to say except that i still have not enjoy ITE life as i imagined it. K we shall stop talking about this unhappy stuff here. okay i dont feel like blogging. sorry :/

2011-01-10T05:31:00.000-08:00

They say "tough times dont last, but tough people do."
I hope i can be considered tough at this point of time.
Gosh, what is really and actually happening to me?
=/ not funny anymore guys.

2011-01-10T05:09:00.000-08:00

I started school today. My feelings, mindset and system totally changed upon setting my foot in the school. I dont know why but i dont feel quite right. I dont feel welcome there. Or maybe this is just a feeling that all the newcomers feel when in a new environment. I tried to comfort myself that way, but sad to say that i wasnt able to. I tried to calm myself down. I tried to mingle around but no, i dont feel welcome. Maybe this is a shock to me because i usually have friends who are quiet and no loud. Im not saying anything bad about my current mates but I have yet to convince myself to open up to you guys. Im not sure if i am able to, in the near future. During the holidays, i thought i had fully prepared myself to go through this journey as an ITE student but sadly, i admit, no i am not fully prepared. But i cant do anything and i cant turn back time or rewind the past. If i can, i would have rewind 2007 back and be in sec1 back where i go back to the basics and everything was fun and exciting. wait, maybe my feeling now is hurt as im not in nursing. but its my own fault also... I have only myself to blame. And today, i was holding my phone throughout. Hoping that by texting people i know would calm me down as i was on the verge of crying and breaking down. but everyone is busy with their stuff, i understand. On my mind was only to run out of the classroom and lock myself up in the toilet or somewhere.. where i could be alone and give myself a thorough reality check. but i wasnt able to, its like i couldnt part with the chair. I guess my mind was telling me to do it, but my heart wasnt agreeing. Therefore, i would just want to pray that everything changes for the better tomorrow as i really cannot take it if my class's girls were arrogant. Im the type that i treat you the way you treat me or if i feel that you deserve better treatment then i shall treat you that way..Lastly, i cant wait for the lesson to start. Can we just skip the orientation part? It really sucks. K i think i have updated enough. Shall update more tomorrow!
Thanks alot (:

2011-01-05T07:49:00.000-08:00

miss you so much, sya :(

2010-10-23T10:19:00.000-07:00

Today we started work.

Yes, we!

Nadiah & I.

At first it was soooooo fun and then suddenly it turned suckish.

we are quitting soon!

hahahahahahaha, so wanna get out of that shithole.

Bye peopleezxz, wanna clean my make up & off to sleep.

2010-10-13T03:53:00.001-07:00

nowadays, im so obsessed with my hair!

i dont know why.

& i so want this girl's hair badly!

hahahaha.

Loves (Y)

2010-10-12T03:50:00.000-07:00

HAD A MOVIE MARATHON OVER AT MY HOUSE TODAY!

with my beautiful gurls,

Namirah & Ashiqin.

Watched Lagenda Budak Setan, Camp Rock 2 & Last Song.

Last Song was a crying session.

='(

hehehehehe.

Love my gurls and wished that there was more people to join us next time!

byebye, im tired.

(heh!)

nights!

2010-10-08T07:09:00.000-07:00

Today,

i went out with my lovely gurls.

We went to West Mall to catch a movie.

Charlie St. Clouds.

It was sooooooo touching & Zac Efron was hot hot heat!

especially his abs, makes me meltttt.

heh, cannot beat bieber's.

All of us cried because the story was so touching.

and i dont mind watching it for the second time.

After our movie, we went to Jurong Point and had our late lunch.

At Burger King.

We laughedddddd alot!

hahaha.

After burger king, we headed to the park nearby to take pictures.

Pictures are on my FB.

do check them out yeah (^^)

during the picture taking,

my eyes was so itchy cos' my falsies were poking into them!

haiyaaaa.

but i endured (strong girl)

And then, we headed back to JP and had our normal

Double Chocolate Frappe.

It was A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

and all my gurls was going "ohh" over the McCafe guy.

hahahah!

kk, tak nak elaborate eh.

Nadd went home early and then the rest of us walked around JP for awhile.

after that we took the bus home.

I rested and here i am typing!

heh.

Okay people, it was a long day.

goodbye!

(^^)

2010-10-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS!

my Ns are finally over.

so im freeeee now!

heh.

Ask me out anybody? hehehe.

Im so gonna look for a job now.

Bye people.

2010-10-02T09:05:00.000-07:00

To those that take life seriously, we may see humor as an obstacle in our paths. The truth is that jokes are funny because they contain a grain of truth about life that would not be able to be shown through any other medium. A funny joke or poem has the power to point out subtle ironies of life that I might get shot in the head for if I were to say them straight out. Humor has the capacity to point absurdities about the way we live our lives in a non-threatening way.

2010-10-02T08:51:00.000-07:00

Life is the sum of experiences that we encounter as go through life. Day to day to struggles and triumphs are experienced by all of the world's creatures. As human beings, when we encounter a challenge, we have freedom to choose how to react. Every decision that we make leads us down another road. We will never come to exactly the same crossroads. Every decision the we make has significance. The tiniest choice that is made reverberates throughout the entire universe.

2010-09-28T20:28:00.000-07:00

One word for today: SUCKS.
bye.

2010-09-24T08:25:00.000-07:00

deprived of sleep & i still dont wanna let go of the keyboard!

haha.

2010-09-24T08:13:00.000-07:00

This is the magical place i was talking about; Bora Bora Island.

It makes me sooooooooooo excited and i dont do how to describe this feeling!

doesnt it gives you the same feeling?

Magical & special.

i can stay in that water for like days, i swear!

Its located in France & the water is clear blue (just like a swimming pool)

and in the bedroom suites, there's a coffee table which is see-through!

How cool is that?!

Please bring me here somebody!

PLEASE? PLEASE? PLEASE?!

please?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!

2010-09-24T08:04:00.000-07:00

hey people.

I am veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy sad now.

My spongebob tee cannot arrive on time!

haha, silly thing.

Okay nevermind.

Anyways, today was a longggg day for me.

I am tired sleepy tired sleepy.

and it goes on and on and on.

AND IM SO INTO ONLINE SHOPPING AGAIN.

haha.

and yes, did i tell you my sista is in Hong Kong now?

haha.

Its her turn to go after mine, last year!

Hope she had fun just like i did.

except for the food that sucked.

And i told her to buy for me something from there.

haha, so cant wait for her to be back.

and yes, i will be at the airport tomorrow to welcome her.

macam superstar!

and i wanna eat at airport again.

last time we eat there was when my sista (again) came back from Cambodia.

-.-"

Next will be my turn.

go to bora bora island.

hehehe.

WHOEVER WHO BRINGS ME TO BORA BORA ISLAND,

I WILL LOVE YOU TILL I DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

haha!

that place is magical, i tell you.

M-A-G-I-C-A-L!

it just explains me.

Natural & down to earth.

the water is clear, and dont regret bringing me there.

cause i will stay in the water for hours!

Okay, i got to go now.

Im sleepy.

byezxz cyber owls!

2010-09-21T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hey people.

Today was a rough day for me.

But im all better now.

Its true that they say "sorry" is a magic word.

I like people saying sorry to me, honestly.

It makes me have more respect for them.

Like they're not ashame to admit their mistakes.

And i, personally would like to thank God for my circle of wonderful friends.

seriously for me,

Family and Friends are the most important in my life.

Love are all secondary based.

So, friends, if i ever lose you,

Its like losing a part of my life.

& okay, i shall end my post here.

Cause i made up with my friend (^^)

heh, so happy!

So yeah, goodnight people.

AND REMEMBER TO CHERISH THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU NOW.

byezxzx!

2010-09-20T07:18:00.000-07:00

Hey.

What i know now is i deprive of sleep.

and im always hungry.

HAHA!

Byezxzx.

2010-09-10T07:12:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya, people!

I want to say sorry for everything.

and yes, im so happy!

finally get to meet my cousins from mum's side.

Love them alotz.

& yes, happy stuffing myself with rendangs and kuihs.

But, hohoho.

no harm done right?

like i said, i love raya.

so, goodbye people.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, once again!

2010-09-07T10:13:00.000-07:00

I’m angry that I feel like crying right now.

I’m angry because I can never have a truly honest conversation with you.

I’m angry because I have to avoid you.

I’m angry because others knew about your behavior before I did.

I’m angry I will never know how much meaning our relationship had for you.

I’m angry because I will never know how you really felt about me.

I’m angry because I still think of you.

and when im angry, you wont like it.

2010-09-07T10:04:00.000-07:00

Today,

Im mugging for my Social Studies papers tomorrow.

I really hope what i study will be out.

I am veryyyyyy tired and i dont know why i still have the strength to update.

then, this guy at Facebook, keeps telling me to sleep,

have enough rest, goodluck, read my prayers.

Hahaha, so caring.

And yes, i miss Qiyam.

Had soooo much fun.

especially nightwalk.

wish i could rewind the time.

night people!

2010-09-03T08:17:00.000-07:00

urghhhhhhhhhhh.

im having maths night class now.

At pioneer mall with Mr ng.

and worse, my maths is every Monday, Wednesday & Friday.

from 8-10pm.

and its at McDonalds (^^)

hehhhh.

kk, bye!

2010-09-03T08:15:00.000-07:00

i dont need your love and you to make my life go on.

hahhahaha.

you had this thinking that life revolves around you.

sorry, youre wrong!

2010-09-03T07:56:00.000-07:00

hey people.

I cant resist the urge to update my blog.

i should learn how to resist.

anyways, i dont know what to say now.

Nak cakap pasal cinta? pasal heartbreak? pasal bieber?

hahaha.

I feel like breaking down and cry.

Many people say that i am good at hide my feelings.

But sadly, i dont think of that as myself.

I hate that i cant control my tears.

Whenever i think of something disheartening, i cry.

and, hoho, ive officially got a stalker!

haha. but, its okay.

the stalker is a beautiful princess.

and when i talk to her, i was opened to a whole new truth.

even though i am sad, its okay.

we talked about someone.

rather than being with you, and you cheat and lie on me,

i'd rather let you go.

goodbye and aww, im going to cry now.

2010-09-02T10:09:00.000-07:00

I will never forget the days we once had

The days when you were everything to me

My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever

But now I realize that was all a big dream

The feelings I have for you will never go

I wish I could take back that one regretful day

The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms

Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets

That I would once have to live through

The sight of you in someone else's arms

Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces

I sometimes wonder if you still think of me

Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd

I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back

But for now, I'll sit here silently

Remembering all the memories we once shared

Everyday my love grows much stronger

Hoping that one day you will feel the same

And put back the pieces of my broken heart.

But i know it'll never happen.

Just my dreams.

fcuk my brain.

bye!

2010-08-26T11:59:00.000-07:00

Okay people.

Nlevel is another 11 days.

and i mean it, im on hiatus for now.

Bye bye, but still, you can reach me on my mobile.

No worries, bays.

Night night.

*muahh*

2010-08-26T11:43:00.000-07:00

today.

I was sick as a pig.

I had two swollen eyes and a dang high fever.

And y'all must be wonderin' why im talkin' like this right?

HAHAHA, ive been bitten by the Hannah-Montana Bug!

haha, okay, snap out of it.

Ive been watching Hannah Montana Seasons for 2 days straight.

How fanatic can i be?

Ive even downloaded the videos in my phone!

haha, whatever.

And yes, getting back to the sick part,

I had two fishballs as my eye and inside my body (trust me) there's a blood-heater in there.

haha.

Okay, ive been posting about heartbroken stuffs lately.

Just showing how i felt.

yeahhh, and now, i just have to say it!

im not over you but im over you.

k, enough.

yesssss, ive got a new phone and im sooo happy about it.

wait, gimme a minute, my eyes itch.

okay, im back.

Hmm, something strucked me today.

Since i have experienced a beautiful life journey,

I feel like writing a book on it.

like a normal teenage kind of book.

where i talk about love, parents, siblings, friends, fashion, beliefs and all over girl's stuffs.

But, honestly, i dont know where to begin.

maybe i should put that on hold.

and gosh! Ive been starving myself these few days.

to just shed off a few pounds, but sadly, i am still the same girl.

but its okay. the other night, farah slept over at my house and we had this talk.

Farah: i think youre pretty.

Me: Nonsense. (and i laughed so hard)

Farah : Swear.

Me: If i was pretty, then i would have lots and lots and lots of guys lining up for me.

Farah : If a guy really likes you, he doesnt care about how you look like. He would look at this.. *and she touched my heart*

how sweet was that? thanks farah. i needed the talk.

and suddenly, i feel so dumb checking my inbox everyday for just an e-mail from you.

thanks alot for wasting my life.

grrrrrrrrrrrrr-

And oh boy, i got to go now.

Need to rest these eyes and make sure they cool down by tomorrow.

Dont want to run errands with eyes like fishballs.

Muahaha, bye!

2010-08-24T11:39:00.000-07:00

Even when I pour my heart out to you,
I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know.

2010-08-21T10:27:00.000-07:00

i hope i did the right thing.

Dont want to do anymore mistakes.

2010-08-19T11:36:00.000-07:00

I swore to myself it wouldn't happen again.

I vowed to myself that this was the end.

The end of this longing, this yearning so strong...

I said I was over you, but oh I was so wrong.

Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas

in little kids heads,like mine (before)

that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after.

How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had?

Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine?

Why is it I miss someone I was never really with?

And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?

A great love :

Is when you shed tears for him but still you care for him.

It's when he ignored you but you still long for him.

It's when he starts loving another,

and yet you manage a smile,

and find the courage to say "I'm happy for you."

I'm not over you because I don't like you anymore,

I'm over you because

I've realized that you're never going to want me like I want you.

Why did I have to fall for you when you just keep falling for someone else?

My biggest advice for anyone dealing with the heartbreak of an unwanted breakup,

is to look very carefully at the person who broke up with you,

and look very carefully at yourself.

If you are radically honest, you will see a myriad of ways that you asked for the breakup to happen as well as the ways that you deserve something better in relation to another person.

enough said.

2010-08-19T11:34:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person,

but when you see him smile,

you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over him,

to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours.

2010-08-19T11:27:00.000-07:00

suddenly i feel so stupid.

I need a lot of peace now.

ALOT.

2010-08-13T12:53:00.000-07:00

I want you to bring me see the stars.

I want to be there when i am sad.

I want you to be there when im happy.

I want you to be there when i need you.

I want you to be here.

close to me.

2010-08-13T12:52:00.001-07:00

2010-08-13T12:46:00.000-07:00

Im somehow thankful that i am born this way,

because if i was thin, pretty and perfect,

my life would be so full of sweet talks and heartbreaks.

what a world!

2010-08-13T12:10:00.000-07:00

Hey people.

I know i said that i was going to MIA.

But i couldnt resist updating this blog.

(^^)

heeeeee.

Today i did nothing much.

Planned to break my fast with Nabeelah,

but in the end, i had to go back to school for Maths.

But its okay, studies comes first.

so, i came home from class at 7 and quickly get ready to go for my prayers.

Had dinner after that.

and after helping mummy with the chores,

here i am, updating.

and remember the time when i said i wasnt going to shop online anymore?

I guess i just cant stop my itchy fingers from ordering accessories from Korea.

hehehehe, thats me for you.

and yes! i will be changing my number today.

From Singtel to Starhub so yeah, be prepared for my text!

haha.

And omgggggggggggg, i can barely talk now.

My tonsils are hurting so bad and im having fever.

But i will still fast tomorrow.

okay peeps.

Until here only.

Byeeeee, love you all!

(L)

2010-08-12T06:19:00.000-07:00

im going to M.I.A for the time being.

Till after my prelims okie dokie.

Anyone who wants to meet me up, find me at the library.

K, goodbye!

2010-08-10T09:29:00.000-07:00

yeay, besok start puaser.

Selamat Berpuasa semua orang!

2010-08-07T12:47:00.000-07:00

so hot!

nak tido.

bye.

hahahahaha, lame!

2010-08-06T12:40:00.000-07:00

Love her forever!

2010-08-04T09:25:00.000-07:00

I need this someone that makes me laugh till my fat cheeks hurt.
I need this someone that i know i have his shoulder whenever i need it.
I need this someone to assure me that i have his back.
I need this someone to wipe my tears away.
I need this someone to give me this warm assuring hug whenever i need it.

Guess i'll never find him.
Cause there's no good guys left in this world.
:(
sad, i know.

2010-08-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.

I wasnt in the best of mood today.

A lot of things happened.

My painting got ruined, i havent finished sketching and blah blah blah.

Prelims are next week, gosh!

And yeahhhh, im so tired now.

You know what people? i think im going to blog even if i have time.

Meanwhile, just keep those formsprings coming innn!

night night.

P.S./

DADDY BIRTHDAY IS THIS MONDAY!

together with National Day.

Gonna plan a supriseeeeee!

2010-08-03T08:47:00.000-07:00

Ive always had something for those arms, baby.

wo ai ni!

2010-08-02T06:23:00.000-07:00

Today was tiring but fun.

I feel that im opening my heart more to maths.

i hope i can pass!

anyway, prelims is next week.

Ramadan starts next week.

phew, lots of things weighing.

Anyway, facebook is ....

ahh, malas ah nak cakap.

Okay people, revision time.

Byeee!

if you dont know, i still miss you.

2010-07-31T09:29:00.000-07:00

Hey peopleeeeeeeeee.

i spent my saturday baking!

Mummy was kind enough to sponsor my ingredients.

i baked cupcakes.

& had marshmallow topping on them.

I had alot of fun baking them & had lotsa fun muching on them.

and im going to bake a cheesecake reallllllllllllllly soon.

I want to brush up on my baking skills (cheh!)

Anyway, i had a day break from studies.

but im so going to get back to it tomorrow.

and i also want to meet my ayumix.

okaylah people, i want to go and clean up now.

Bye!
:)

2010-07-31T09:27:00.000-07:00

enough said.

2010-07-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

Today, im extremely happy.

i spent my school day enjoying the classes.

and i enjoyed my maths lesson after school too.

Know why?

Mr Ng said that Wahyuni & I have improved alot and

we are the strong ones in the group!

at least, my hardwork and sacrificed sleep time is worth it.

Anyway, i went to KFC with Wahyuni after maths

and had lotsssssssssssss of fun!

We laughed and laughed and laughed.

We didnt eat there, we just laughed.

Then, we realized the food went cold so we just ate it.

hahahaha, im so talking nonsense now.

K, nevermind.

After KFC, we went to the library to do our revisions.

Ayu did her art while i did my maths.

We were still laughing in the library!

for no apparent reason.

but ayu was funny! she made up silly names like :

Ayuu Merepek.

hahaha, nonsense kan.

then at 7.30pm, we got out of the library and headed home.

Nowwwww, i want to go and sleep because tomorrow maybe im bakingggggggg.

so happyyyyy about it.

hahaha.

Night night people.

p.s/ Im so beginning to love maths!

2010-07-30T09:36:00.000-07:00

Bring me here & my heart will be yours forever.

swear.

2010-07-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

yeay!

i edited my whole blog.

Got new navigations & more boomz music!

so excited about this new bloggggg.

2010-07-26T09:07:00.000-07:00

nur zamirah feels like breaking down and cry.

:(

2010-07-26T08:41:00.000-07:00

firstly, blogger is so getting on my nerves as i cant upload picturesss!

mak ai, geram nyer.

& yeah, today went so well in school.

I started to enjoy lessons and i so loveeeee the weather!

and then, i went to Jurong Point after school.

with my parents.

now, im at home, struggling too focus on my maths.

tomorrow is maths mock exam.

Okay world, i need to go now.

Byeeee.

:(

2010-07-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

I just re-read my old posts from last year.

My my my my, i sound so 'kental'

hahahha. wth, now i sound like a minah.

K, shuddup.

I realized that i havent hung out with Rini Marinah, Nadiah and Noora anymore.

i really miss them badly.

and ive read all my happy, heartbroken, unhappy posts.

its okay. Life has to move on right?

Okay, im so going to revise my maths now.

Bye people.

2010-07-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

why do humans change?

and it hurts when the people closest to you change and your love turns to hatred.

but to make things worse,

you dont know whether to be nice or nasty to them

2010-07-13T09:34:00.000-07:00

i know i shouldnt be thinking of you.

You broke me into a million pieces.

you hurted me.

yet, everytime i try to forget you, you keep re-appearing in my life.

i still have the urge to text you every now and then.

I still sit in the same spot in the library.

I still draw in the library.

im sorry, but i deleted you away from my life.

Im really really really sorry.

no, its not your fault.

its mine.

Its mine.

its mine to have fallen for you.

to have liked you.

to have loved each and every single thing of you.

To me, you are perfect.

So, yeah, its my fault.

Whereas, i dont deserve you.

i still remember each and everything you say about being attached to me and everything.

no, not true.

I wont believe you anymore.

I know love and matter of hearts cannot be forced so,

please, just dont appear in my life anymore.

goodbye.

and im so so sorry.

2010-07-13T09:26:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.

Today's skating was fun!

I had loads of fun at school today.

and i soooo cant wait for this saturday!

okay people.

need to complete my art.

goodbye!

penat nyerrr =(

2010-07-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

Hey people.

Nowadays, i find myself so lazyyyy to update my blog.

Well, ive been busy with school.

Courseworks, remedials and night classes.

cannot tahan sey.

Especially my coursework!

I wonder how nabeelah does her work so fast.

i think i must kidnap her.

(hahaha)

hmm, im so damn damn damn stressed.

k, not exactly la.

anyway, i made a deal with myself.

I want to give all my best for my Nlevels.

Eventhough it meant to sacrifice my sleeping time or eating time.

I need to improve on my maths and science.

I want to enter Nursing in ITE later onnn!!

Im going to ajak ayuu with me.

Love love love love you ayuumi.

(L)

Okay guys,

i got to go now.

Im in need of sleep

but i got to complete my observational drawing.

byebye sayangs.

=(

2010-06-30T07:43:00.000-07:00

I think it would be much easier to run my shoe & clothes business with a laptop named under me.

Omg!

sunday

2010-06-27T06:52:00.000-07:00

hey people.

Today is such a boring sunday.

tomorrow is more boring!!

school. Big OMG,

and yezza, ive downloaded new songs.

hehehe.

Okaylah, gotta go.

Nak sleep.

byeeee!

official.

2010-06-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

Officially in deep love.

pleasyyy.

2010-06-25T08:08:00.001-07:00

please tag my dead tagboard.

hahaha.

its the only thing that you can re-live.

shoessssss mania.

2010-06-24T07:59:00.000-07:00

i finally done all my shoes orders.

and omg, i hate people rushing me.

Goodbye, nak sleep.

hahah.

bye!

tonight is Hannah Montana!

Nick Jonas.

2010-06-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

Random Facts about Nick Jonas (my baby)

-Nick started a charity called Change for the Children Foundation, which helps kids with diabetes.

-Nick has admitted that he loves playing Guitar Hero, and that he's also horrible at it.

-If his band continues to be successful, he doesn't think he'll be going to college.

-While touring, Nick guards his socks.

-At home, he keeps count of the socks in his drawer. (so cute la you)

-Nick doesn't believe in luck. (me tooo baby!!)

-Nick says it would be cool to have the ability to fly.

-Nick prefers texting rather than myspace or A.I.M.

did you forget?

2010-06-21T07:44:00.000-07:00

I didnt get what i was hoping for on my birthday.

Its official, youre out of my life.

go and shove you own feet in your mouth or up your nose.

freak.

enough said.

16 on the 16th.

2010-06-16T06:51:00.000-07:00

Hey people.

I thought i would perk up my dead blog with something nice.

Guess what?

I just turned sixteen!

i would like to thank all those who send me text messages,

facebook notifications and presents!

thanks for making my sweet sixteen the sweetest.
i will remember this for the rest of my life.

How i wish i stay sixteen forever.

but its okay...

and yes, thanks for the Marina Barrage suprise my gerls!

omg, totally shocked me.

and the birthday bash in the water.

hahaha.

and yes, i smiled alot that day even though i had to walk around in wet pants.

its okay, i had lotsa fun!

and thanks for the presents.

im so happy today.

and yes, family suprised me with a big cake and shoes.

hahaha.

I got shoes from mummy, shoes from sister and

money to buy my ankle boots from daddy.

hahah!

and yes, mum's birthday is in 3 more days!

cant wait.

goodnight people.

birthday girl needs to rest.

(hehehe)

bye.

thank you once again.

=(

2010-06-10T08:38:00.000-07:00

am i supposed to hang around & wait forever?

heyyzzxzxz!!

2010-05-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

Hey people.

I know its been long since i updated.

I was so busy with school!

Intensive revision almost everyday.

Nevermind.

Today i had Malay camp till 5pm.

It was *yawn**yawn* all the way.

Ok, im so malas want to talk about this.

Lets talk about something funnnnn.

like.......

oh ya, i scored A2 for my Malay MYE.

and i want to watch the Last Song again!!

Like seriously.

& tomorrow, we're having a group study at farahna's house.

After that, she promised to try and straighten my hair.

Lets see the results ok.

keep a lookout on my FB.

Okay people.

I need to go now.

Got a stupid survey to do.

byeeee.

I will update tomorrow ok.

bye.

finally over.

2010-05-16T10:01:00.000-07:00

Okay, this is going to be very brief.

The MYE is finally over.

and im in need of rest.

Ok, bye.

Told you it was going to be brief.

bye.

& yes, i watch the Last Song.

speechless and totally in love with it.

Confident that im going to watch it over and over again.

M.Y.E break.

2010-05-05T08:22:00.000-07:00

Hey people.

I wont update my blog

until i clear my M.Y.E.

im still stressing over these subjects

that makes me just want to break down and cry my heart out.

I dont know why but somehow i feel ...... stupid(?)

even though i pass my english and others,

but, i somehow still feel down.

I want to concentrate and at least feel the joy of passing ALL my subjects.

wish me luck guys.

wont be updating anymore.

byeeeeeeeeee.

be happy always.

think positively.

Hello.

2010-05-02T18:29:00.000-07:00

Hey people!

sorry for not updating since a longgggg time!

i have been busy lately.

all the remedials and classes and homeworks.

urgh.

Did you guys miss me?

omg, i sure did miss you!

Okay, i dont know where to start,

so just let me start with today k.

Today,

my sister woke me up to iron my mum's clothes.

she disturbed my sleep.

I was dreaming of Justin Bieber and Nick Jonas seh!

grr.

anyway, i am going to practise my maths today.

Maths exam in 3 days time.

Wish me luck people.

I really wanna pass.

Okaylah, i got to go now.

Still deciding whether i want to go to the library or not.

hahaha.

My stomach painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

ok, bye.

i will update tomorrow k.

oh ya! today holiday.

tomorrow school.

hehe, bye!

:(

2010-04-15T07:14:00.000-07:00

Hey people.

had a longgggggggggggggggggggggggggg day at school today.

I went home feeling so tired.

but in the end, instead of resting,

i have to cut the vegetables and clean the kitchen.

Whatever lah ok.

I dont want to elaborate.

anyway, i found something out on Facebook.

yeahh, so much for your "attached to you"

whatever mat.

you are the biggest nonsense i ever met.

in case you dont know,

ive deleted you from my MSN & my Facebook.

Lets be strangers again.

& if God is willing, we'll meet again.

and yes, perhaps you dont even visit my blog

as often as you did.

disappointing & disappointed.

Thanks.

Goodbye.

& yes. i watched Hannah Montana just now.

was awesome!

i loved everything about miley.

especially her husky voice.

kater number one fan sey!

hahaha.

Okaylah people,

i wanna complete my artwork.

bye.

P.S i cant forget thinking about ThaiExpress.

brought me down.

2010-04-14T07:04:00.000-07:00

Im seriously brought down and hurt

by who you are now.

Youre not the person i know last time.

I just got a few things to say.

1) I hate you.

2) I hate you .

3) I will always hate you.

Goodbye.

CIP.

2010-04-13T07:10:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!

today i had CIP.

At Blue Cross Thong Kheng Home (sp?)

It was really frightening.

but some of them were funny!

especially the one who played eyes with me.

HAHAHHA.

and yessssssssssss, practically everone's been talking about

the guy who pulled down his pants and ran around half-naked.

I was about to see it, but Wei Cai told me not to turn around.

I mean, this people are suffering inside.

im saddened to see them in their situation.

pitiful.

well, whatever it is,

im thankful for the opportunity & im really happy that i met them.